Tag: diosita
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I had something of a breakthrough the other day when I realized that, despite the fact that I was feeling incredibly down and sullen, the reason why I was feeling so down and sullen was that I was feeling something again. Not in that general “well, I realize I need to do something now” kind…
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The risk I always run when doing this to myself is making time pass by so quickly and so ineffectively that I forget to do the things that actually serve a purpose. Lost in schedules that would break me if I would care, throwing myself completely into problems that neither have solutions nor are, at…
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The worst thing about it all is the pain that has obscured the reality of her touch and smell and feel from my memory, the painful things that have popped up to get in the way of the rare, beautiful moments in which I didn’t want anything else, didn’t want for anything really, and her…
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The only thing that sticks out to me at a time like this is the feelings that sink in, soaking through my protective layers and getting at me where I’m most vulnerable. It’s not the initial sensation that lingers, or even the immediate emotional reaction usually satisfying some kind of superficial need; it’s the lingering…
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A revised verse, in light of events leading up to its recording.
“Infinitely bright and warm, I quicken my breath and release, and expand, and the truth burns away the belief that my fear and my nothingness will catch me; nothing can cushion this. So given, so revoked–so taken, the ‘me’ and the ‘you’ away; I’m a light, I’m aloft as my back is an arch. I’m…
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I always remember our conversations, but usually on a level that appears whenever I’m doing something else, like starting my car or lifting weights, or just thinking of something other than what I should be doing. It’s funny; she’s the one I’ve talked to the most since I left Portland, even if she’s still there.…